"To climb steep hills requires a slow speed at first."
(William Shakespeare)
I've grown to be strong.
I have always had a strong will, and throughout my adulthood, I've always believed in myself. I've known that I can get through almost anything.
But in the past year, I have had to deal with more heartache and difficulties than ever before in my life. There were times I though it was never going to get better. There were times I doubted myself. I was sad, angry, and hurt. There were days I didn't want to get out of bed. But I did—every single day. I never gave up, even when I didn't feel like trying, because I had this trust in me that somehow things would turn out to be good again.
And it did get better.
Don't get me wrong: I still get sad from time to time. I still don't have everything I ever wanted in my life. But I have the key ingredient to my happiness: myself. I don't know what happened, but suddenly I just realized that I am still me, the only person I ever want to be, and that no one can take that away from me. And that is the best feeling I have ever had.
Being alone does not petrify me anymore. I know I can do it, but it doesn't mean that I still wouldn't want to find that special someone to walk this journey with me. There are times I just want someone to hold me when I'm tired of being strong. I know that this life is meant to be shared.
"You are never strong enough that you don't need help."
(Cesar Chavez)
Somehow I feel that this dress I made this spring for a dinner party represents my journey back to myself:
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| My tulle dreams |
